There are no Answers here

do you ever feel like you can’t go to sleep until you write, and send your questions and breath and story out into the world, just in case someone else is up that night struggling with the same breath?

do you ever just know, while sweeping and mopping your home, that it is sacred because goddesses live there?

do you ever know the things that are good for you and feel right and make you happy and strong but you adamantly refuse to do them because routine is boring, because repetition is boring, because your mind overcomes your spirit? and because discovery is new and interesting and you just want to hoard your “free time” except watching that movie will just remind you of all the things you didn’t do to actually carve your own freedoms?

 can you be happy while still being in deep conflict with people you love who are a part of your heart and soul?

what if i’m happy right now and missing out on contentment because i’m constantly focused on self-improvement / spiritual evolution?

what if happiness is really imperfect, and inclusive of confusion and struggle and pain?

what is the healthiest relationship you have ever experienced with money? what made it good?

how do you balance acceptance of a tough situation – the heart of spiritual teachings - with working on being outside of it?

what will be the races/ethnicities of my babies?

how will they challenge me in the eternity old parent-child dynamic since i’m prepared to support and accept the shit out of them? (i know, i know – they could be Republican but you know what, we will be so far beyond a 2 party system in this country by then. there will be Real Options)

how do you embody a daily, every moment commitment to healing, while living in a capitalist society?

in other words, do you ever feel torn between Being and Doing and how do you balance those? 

what if it is really okay to accept yourself, with all your flaws and insecurities and imperfections? not even as a work in progress, but just as a good-enough human being?

do you ever struggle with your enoughness?

how do you feel complete each day, with each of the multitude of things you do? how do you feel complete in yourself?

how do you deal with anxiety? really, i’m looking for tips.

how do you make sure to go to bed at a fixed, sane hour every night?

(i'm certain the feelings/struggles of enoughness and completeness are tied to patterns of anxiety and staying up late. what have you discovered about this?)

Rilke says to live the questions until you find yourself living the answers. my hope is that putting the questions out there is a step towards that. i'm open to receiving (answers, help, miracles).